I dont know the answer to that question

I know its my job to know but what I dont know is alot. I'm good at my job and it drives me bat shit when i dont have the right info to do my job correctly. I hate haveing to say I dont Know.

Ravings of an Alcoholic/Addict

well today I'm trying to stay sober, just like yesterday and the day before. This sucks I just want a handful of pills to get through the day. Sometimes I think that reality is highly over rated. I drink and do drugs to escape and yes i do acknowledge that I'm a drug addict and an alcoholic. but I function better when I'm just a little off. I guess that I have been doing it for so long that it seems normal. I have to learn to be normal again but I just wonder sometimes if I want to do this. I know the alternative is death but maybe that's what I slowly am working towards and wanting. My brain hurts.